One day, you said you still love me and only me.
So why did you go and leave me for her?
You said she's history, a stop in your life story.
I was happy the day you said you loved me, and I still cry at night.
There's just this picture of you and her in my head,
And I'm really sad, of all people I trusted you the most
And what did I get,
You leaving me and me being sad.
How did it happen?
I know you never tried to let her go
She was always there, but I didn't care,
And now I'm defending you
At the ending of me and you.
Yet you remain a tenant in my mind, it's not fair,
I know passion's address and the letdown that rents there.
Why can't I get you out of my head?
You clearly don't want to be with me,
And I realize I don't want to be with you.
But you've taken up residence in my head,
And you're taking your sweet time packing your sh*t.
Here let me help you pack, I want you out.
I want you gone.
Boxes labeled fragile,
I know your heart isn't in any of them.
Your heart is one of the hardest I've ever known.
It's a wonder you aren't completely made of stone.
Your words of the past, like knives,
Cut through my flesh, bone, and soul.
And now my heart is slowly beginning to harden.
Don't say you've changed your mind,
Because I haven't and I won't.
My heart has grown bitter
Bitter as bitter ever gets,
More bitter than a rotten peach pit,
More bitter than a child's most terrifying nightmare at night.
You will know that I don't reflect what I see in your eyes
We will share some banal recognition
Some cordial understanding,
But have I mentioned that I hate you for lying?
I won't turn a blind eye to your mind games anymore.
I'm moving on and you are too.
Wait, that's not yours to take,
That's my heart, not yours; I never gave it to you.
Give it back; you've already bruised it when you abused my trust.
It hurt worse to have you halfway, than it would have to never have you at all.
I need my heart so I can give it to somebody who truly deserves it.
I need to amputate every body part your mouth had thought to kiss.
Let me amputate my lips for being tricked into thinking your kisses held true emotion.
Peel back my eyelids for being closed leaving me too blind to see the deceit.
Cut out my tongue for every word I've ever spoken to you.
I was fooled by your motives and you leave me no choice.
There's the door, don't look back, don't come back.
I don't want you here anymore.
I close my eyes as the door slams and I take a deep breath.
Tears roll down my face as I exhale,
And this double-edged sword pierces my heart.
I'm happy because I stood up for myself,
But I'm devastated because now I'm alone.
This is why all the women I ever wanted,
Have become the one time I slept soundly in an empty house.
I know I'm not good with words and I'm really hard to read.
You might find it hard to believe,
But I don't have much confidence left in me.
So I need to say something to you before this last bit leaves me.
I'm in love with you, and the only thing I can think to do is kiss you,
But I've been scared.
Go ahead laugh it up, a warrior princess scared, but it's true.
You, my bard, have been the only one to get through this hard exterior
And now I fear you because you are capable of breaking my heart,
Capable of ripping me apart,
Capable of doing things only gods and warlords can dream of,
Yet all I hope is that when you're dreaming, it's sweet dreams of me
Because when I dream it's always of you.
I hope as your eyes pass over this scroll
It becomes obvious the toll you have taken on my heart
And how difficult it was for me to pick up a quill
And try to explain how I feel using a method in which you have many skills
Because you hold it so near and dear to your heart.
I just hope that one day you can find a special place for me in there,
But if not we can pretend this never happened and go back to the way things were,
But my feelings for you will never change; my love for you will never end,
So let me say this now in case I might never get the chance again...
I'll love you forever, my sweet Gabrielle.